The biggest? honestly there’s a few moments I can think of… I’d have to think for a while to pick one that meant more than all the others.. Some that jump out.. So many with him. When I first held my baby brother. Setting off fireworks at a playground at midnight with them. 4th of July night 2013. Sleeping in her car for the first two weeks she got it. When you were in the shower and we’d be screaming When You Were Young. Summer 2012. All of it. The feeling I get whenever I listen to Guinevere and pray you’re happy and loved like you deserve. When I realize I wish I could tell you all the ways you were always so right about everything and I get the ache in my heart because you were what made me realize I wanted to be a mom someday.